in the summer air

there's no sound quite like the clatter of dishes and cutlery outdoors in the summer air.

i want a holiday, i don't like deadline season... last summer is so long ago and i can't remember what it's like to be carefree. complete carefreeness is hard to imagine.

which makes sense, since it's incredibly rare. it's a huge privilege to experience even a little of it. and even at its worst, my life is still extremely safe, secure and comfortable. i'm just tired of deadline season, that's all. (just a few more weeks)