Présidenxe Lei

il y a quelques mois, on m'a nommæ présidenxe du Comité de traduction de ma société d'étudianze. au début j'ai bien sûr protesté, je ne sais pas comment gérer un comité ! je ne voulais pas de cette responsabilité.

or, depuis, je prends ce poste très au sérieux. je traduis beaucoup, j'ai organisé un peu notre stockage en nuage, j'ai commencé à rédiger un guide pour le Comité de traduction de l'an prochain, j'ai consulté le Conseil de la société au sujet de mes difficultés à motiver les members de mon comité, je viens de diffuser un message aux autres comités, proposant les services de mon comité... bref, je m'amuse énormément dans cette affectation.

je refuse

i've been in a drawing mood recently and i've done some great figure drawings (that i wish i could show off, but they're nsfw... feel free to ask about them if you know where to find me though!). despite my use of skeletons, i don't actually care about getting good at drawing, and i refuse to learn anything about how to learn art.

amceposting

"This book is dedicated to anyone who has ever fallen in love with a culture that was devouring their own.
–A Memory Called Empire, Arkady Martine

...which i am aware is not strictly applicable to me. Dutch/European culture, to which i belong, is rather on the devouring than the devoured side. still, i can't help but think of the way i can't help but switch to English every other sentence when talking with a friend who prefers to speak Dutch. and i think of queer communities and experiences, which i have only ever gotten to know in English, which i hardly know how to talk about in other languages (except, amusingly enough, French; i assume because of the easy use of cognates in queer lexical domains). i think of how strange Dutch feels in my mouth these days, even though i have stopped trying to distance myself from it and unlearn it; how i feel like i'm pretending when i speak Dutch.

and i can relate to alternating between trying to fit in as well as possible and exaggerating my foreignness, depending on the point i'm trying to make. i speak six languages, but i don't sound the way a native speaker is expected to sound like in any of them. the one i am most comfortable using is not one i identify as a native language. i suppose with six languages, i can always pretend more or less convincingly to be from somewhere else.