and i'll only get more tired

[itrytobe]

i find i'm kind of entering the zone where all i talk about to anyone who'll listen is uni stuff, like it's starting to [i swear there's like. a perfect word for this. but maybe not in english, beheersen seems good actually] me. it sucks but it's also satisfying in a way? like i'm stressed and tired, but it feels like i'm slightly closer to having "earned the right" to be stressed and tired.

EDIT: take me over, that's the word i was looking for!