the ties of fate
Jan. 24th, 2020 07:53 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
itrytobethe two cities where i spend most of my time are the one where i study ("Student City") and the one where my parents live ("Hometown"). today i traveled to Hometown for the weekend.
it feels kind of good to walk into the centre of Hometown. maybe because it's so familiar; i did grow up around here and always liked visiting the centre. but i think there's more, like a sense of belonging. i don't really feel like i belong to Student City. Student City belongs to the students, and i don't feel like a real student (then again, i don't feel like a real anything - fake student, fake ace, fake human, fake living being...). Hometown isn't as overrun with students.
and also... it feels not just like my home of the past, but also my home of the future. i have plans to move back in with my parents after i finish my degree for sure. that's supposed to be temporary, but i'm not too optimistic since i will be unemployed and chained down by a massive student debt.
maybe Hometown feels like the place where i belong because i can sense my fate. i would love to live in Brussels and in Finland and in some other places too, but i am fated to wash up in Hometown.
it feels kind of good to walk into the centre of Hometown. maybe because it's so familiar; i did grow up around here and always liked visiting the centre. but i think there's more, like a sense of belonging. i don't really feel like i belong to Student City. Student City belongs to the students, and i don't feel like a real student (then again, i don't feel like a real anything - fake student, fake ace, fake human, fake living being...). Hometown isn't as overrun with students.
and also... it feels not just like my home of the past, but also my home of the future. i have plans to move back in with my parents after i finish my degree for sure. that's supposed to be temporary, but i'm not too optimistic since i will be unemployed and chained down by a massive student debt.
maybe Hometown feels like the place where i belong because i can sense my fate. i would love to live in Brussels and in Finland and in some other places too, but i am fated to wash up in Hometown.
